corner of my mind

hmm what things should i wish for my birthday? a bouqet of flower, a cake, a surprise :D i always wish for kind like romantic things on my birthday. hmm.  health, happiness, oppurtunity, changes, family, friends, lover, are just some things that i always whisper in when my age turn to another age.  honestly, 24 for me means everything are just not gonna be the same anymore. Grow old, grow up, grow strong... mean i cannot do something stupid like a child anymore.. mean i should be mature enough to see through every trouble. mean i have more responsibility for my life, not just for me, but also for people around me, family, friends, unlucky people, and everyone who knows me. 24 means i should be ready for new chapter in my life. Be with me always, God. thank You for every single step, part and everything that You gave to me as i am growing old. May you lead me through this life easier, happier, and meaningful. well, tomorrow.  Happy birthday to me :)  December 2,...

"I'm not right for him. We bring out the dark side in each other. I need to let him go. He need to let go."

"i have tried with all of my strength to fight it. it is a curse i do not wish on my worst enemy. but, i love him." "the worst thing is I thought he would make me happy" "we both make mistakes. but if we can't accept that about each other, how do we move forward?"

 Baru-baru ini gw suka baca blog yang dikenal dengan nama Ndoro Kakung. sejauh ini, isinya menarik, natural dan sederhana. Khas. Ada satu postingan yang judulnya : " Google+ Pecas Ndahe " . Pembukanya, kalimat di bawah ini : “I miss the days when you had one phone number and one answering machine, and that one answering machine has one cassette tape, and that one cassette tape either had a message from a guy or it didn’t.” Dia baca kutipan dialog Mary Harris (yang diperankan sama Drew Barrymore di  film He’s Just Not That Into You ) itu dari di sebuah blog lain. Intinya sih kayak kutipan orang yang kesepian justru saat berada di tengah2 keramaian. Dia kehilangan pembicaraan yang intim dan personal, dari satu orang ke orang lain. Dan ia merindukan masa-masa ketika media sosial belum seriuh sekarang. Begitu kata Ndoro Kakung... Well, yang mau gw tulis sebenarnya klise, though i feel the same way with her too.. i miss talk with friends, laugh, joke, personally. Not in tw...

Teknologi memudahkan segala sesuatu di kehidupan manusia. Benar? Iya setuju. I've no doubt. Kebayang kalau kita harus nyuci bertumpuk-tumpuk baju selama seminggu dengan tangan kosong tanpa mesin cuci.. atau ngetik berlembar-lembar pake daur kelor... :'( Tapii gw merasa kekurangsreg-an terhadap teknologi yang satu ini. Mengobrol via online media. Gw gak suka berlama-lama di depan PC atau ketak-ketik di BBM ngobrol dengan orang lain alias chatting. Oh ya, i've blackberry but never knew what exactly i want it do for me. Chatting isn't the priority. I used it for email, the fitur simply makes me easier to work. Ada kejanggalan tersendiri mengetahui diri kita 'selalu ada' karena aktivitas online media kita yang seperti 24 hours non-stop. Sebutlah bbm. Dengan adanya fasilitas itu, orang bisa menghubungi kita kapanpun, dimanapun (selama masih ada sinyal dan aktif) tanpa harus pikir panjang. Masalahnya, ada kalanya ketika walaupun fasilitas bbm kita tsb aktif tapi kit...

Here we go. We're gonna talking about how i'm getting here, build my zero-nothing position on my career right now. why i become civil servant? pertanyaan yang DULU sulit dijawab ketika idealisme masih menggebu2 ingin berkarya di sektor swasta, ketika jaman kuliah banyak mengkritik sisi politik pemerintahan, hahah... to be honest, menjadi pegawai negeri itu... suatu pilihan yang susah-susah gampang, mau-mau engga... nah bingung deh pasti maksudnya gimana.. Begini, jadi pegawai negeri itu susah-susah gampang. Pertama, jalur masuknya. Maaann you know how many steps you have to cross before you step your feet into an government instantion ! its about four or five step.  Bukan cuma itu aja, selain saingannya yang membludak kita juga harus 'berperang' dengan saingan-saingan yang udah duluan punya 'kursi' di pemerintahan. Harus diakui sistem penerimaan CPNS kita memang bobrok, terutama di daerah. Kenapa gw bisa bilang begitu? Karena gw udah pernah m...